I’m writing from my charming new home in Germany. But today, when I say “everything is different,” I’m not referring to this new home of mine… I’m talking about the heart-sinking feeling that happens get when you go back to a place you haven’t been for a long time and, even though everything looks the same, it’s completely different than you remember it. Know what I mean?

For me, this means not setting lifestyle-change goals and expecting to quit something I love cold turkey and take on a challenging new habit 100% from day 1. The way I balance challenging myself and staying inspired, while also not setting myself up for failure is by having TWO goals. I have my main goal, and then I set a stretch goal.

This is a step in the middle of the process, a part of the journey most people struggle through silently rather than broadcasting. It doesn’t have the satisfaction of a clear answer. Instead, it’s the steady, grounded, uncertain-yet-determined that must be encountered before a wildly beautiful dream comes to life.

Rewilding is relearning what it means to be a woman. To be the woman you have always been, despite any misleading messages from the society we grew up in or from our own minds as the result of pain throughout our lives.

So, with my final week in the United States ahead of me, I’ve been checking in with this adventurous heart of mine and asking if it has all that it needs - what can I do for you? Are you feeling safe? Did you know I love you? And while there’s a little bit of fear, I have this gentle sense of peace in knowing this whole world is my home as long as I’m committed to loving, honoring, and being my whole self.

Have you ever trusted your gut, only to find out later you were completely wrong? It’s hard to come back from that feeling of betrayal and embarrassment when you relied on your intuition and it seemed to fail… but it’s not impossible…

Of all the catalysts in my life thus far, gentleness has been the most magnificent.

Have you ever noticed how, when you push and fight for something you really want, it can start to feel like every little thing is working against you? When we’re desperate, when we try to force things, it makes a battle out of what could have been a walk along the countryside.

You would never have known it by looking at me, but before I left everything I’d ever known and ran into the loving arms of the ocean at the edge of the world… I was lonely most of the time.

I was all smiles, with this gift/curse of an eternal babyface inviting everyone in. I was giggles and optimism, boiling over. And that was real - I had so much love and gratitude for my people. But on the inside, I felt alone.

Now, I see that to be the change you wish to see, you have to be part of the world around you. You have to participate.

I am a firm believer that we are all one in that we each have a core state of being that is nothing but pure love and expansiveness. The real struggle is peeling away the layers to let your true expansive self shine through.

Are you a small business owner who struggles with mental health from time to time? This message is for you.

I’d been blaming myself and feeling so frustrated that, even after two or three really fantastic weeks with a beautiful mindset and really taking care of myself, doing well in my business, keeping in touch with friends and family… I’d still have setbacks where I essentially set my whole life on fire. It made no sense, it was never something I planned or intended, and even as it was happening and I felt completely out of control, I couldn’t make it stop.

One of my favorite things about fall is what a perfect time it is for self-care. If you keep busy in the summer and fall, preparing for the shock of being indoors more throughout the winter sometimes needs to include reconnecting with yourself.

Whether the majority of our days tend to be mediocre and unexciting or generally a little gloomy… or whether you find a hint of a smile and a subtle skip in your step on a daily basis is learned!

It was a compromise - we can leave this place, but the body still comes first. I have to love this body - or there will be nothing left for you, I told the panic inside. It worked. The storm calmed and I threw myself into caring for the body that allows me to love so deeply, to do my creative work, to create and appreciate the beauty of a warm, cozy, bright, safe space.

I didn’t give these wild dreams a lot of thought or planning, I just wanted to embody the feeling I found when I saw and saved them to my Tumblr. It was a feeling of peace, hope, possibility, and joy. Despite my circumstances, or else because of them, I felt so loved by the universe knowing places and creatures so beautiful were able exist in the same world as the one I was living in- both literally and figuratively.

Sometimes fear shows up in disguise as self-sabotage, procrastination, laziness, unexplained exhaustion, or perfectionism… This tip will help you work through and overcome fear in any form.

What I love about this approach to resolving a conflict is that it takes away the attack feeling and allows you to really humbly and fully express how you are feeling, without pointing any blame. It opens up an avenue of conversation without immediately sparking defensiveness.

I’m sitting on the beach with my broken heart today… And I’m just wondering: why?!Why are things allowed to happen this way? How can I love someone as much as I love this man… and still have to him let go?

I keep waiting for someone to come take my hand and make it easier… To look me in the eye and tell me I’m doing the right thing, because one moment I know I am — but the next, it seems like nothing could be more wrong.

This is not a giving up, but a surrender. Giving up is to lose hope. I have more hope than ever. This shift is a coming home. It’s leaning into the embrace of my beautiful loving core… and the love and acceptance I have always longed for more than anything else in the world.